Resolution

a phone call
a cuppa
a few tears
an apology

...forgiveness is beautiful!

Very bad decision...

On our way home - I feel physically ill to write this - we passed through the suburb my sister lives in & I sent her a message saying we weren't stopping at her place...

...I don't know why I didn't PHONE her & say we were trying to get home & perhaps I would have a coffee with her rather than camp at her place, or what I was thinking but I sent her an SMS & told D to just keep driving. When I got home I thought that was totally LAME, & just don't know why I did that!? How easy would it have been to phone!???? Why why WHY didn't I phone? I love my sisters. I was so looking forward to seeing her place. Was I just brain dead after being away for a month??? We got a sniff of home & I just told D to keep driving...

She is VERY upset & angry with me, & it was so unlike me to not contact her or pop into the hospital where she works to see her...I didn't sleep well on the weekend & am still totally churning about how rude that was. She sent me a devastating email about how selfish I was. Well, ahem, I cannot deny that! It was selfish. I just wanted to get home. There's nothing she can say that makes me feel any worse than I already do. I can only apologise & say that we were all so desperate to get home, the thought of unpacking the trailer for yet one more night was overwhelming, Bonnie & Eric were whining & I just wanted to get home so desperately...sigh. I have really hurt her & I feel bad about that...why did I do something so STUPID!!????

I have to try & phone her. I've left a message...she must be disgusted with me.

Feeling really horrible about it. Sad sad sad!!!!!!!!!

I feel about as small as the little toe in this picture...

Back...

Been away for a while...back home & back into the slog of work & "normal routine"...thinking about making some big changes in my life!!?