Holidays are nearly over...

...& work is just around the corner. I am feeling overwhelmed...we've had time away, & a big break, but it has disappeared just way too fast. Lots not done yet!!

I have been so weary the last few days I feel that when I wake up the memories I have are so jumbled it's hard to focus on what was a dream, & what was reality. That's how spaced out I've been. Trying to pray, trying to read, trying to suck up some energy to play with the kids before they go back to school, finish reading borrowed books, photocopy worksheets for school, plan topics, sort out things for piano students...I feel a bit overwhelmed, yet I think I hold others around me up too high, & then I feel more overwhelmed thinking "I can't do as much as they do". I really feel like someone has disconnected me from my power point & I am listlessly flailing about, trying to do things each day. I sit with laundry baskets around me trying to psych up to put all of those things away. I sit with my school basket next to me still full of ideas & worksheets that I need to get ready for Monday. I sit with the childrens' bookshelf still half unpacked thinking about fixing it up for next week. I sit looking at Bonnie's bed which needs painting...

I live in a world full of youth & energy with so many doing amazing things, I feel like I am running on half speed, unable to do enough. I went to Pilates this morning & it's wiped me out for the whole day...

Perhaps the heat has gotten to me today?

I live with the limitations of my body. I love a God with inifinite capabilities. I have two wonderful little children who are having a peaceful day today because "Mummy is tired." I have a husband who has gone to work with a spring in his step because all his specialists at Westmead Hospital have said he's going OK. I am very weary today, but very blessed. Just put on a roast. I have clothes to wear & a house to live in. I can cope with this weary body...