The Battle is Real

David & I have supported Open Doors since we first heard about them in 1989. This stuff blows my mind...they care for widows, they bring food & supplies & Bibles to those who need them. It's hard to get my head around the fact that some people are tortured or killed for doing the things that I am able to do in total freedom each week...

Researching...

Our bathroom is getting so old. I am struggling to keep on top of the mould & the poo brown tiles are looking so old...so I am researching bathrooms. I don't want anything moved around, I just want WHITE tiles & flick taps - for those days when my joints are sore...but I don't want to spend too much. I have put all my earnings into a saving account this year so I am slowly saving up the amount...slowly.

Sunday Shakes & Coffee...

A friend sent this when we lost Max & Lucy...

I've been reading through the journal I kept when we fell pregnant with the twins.
It's been hard to read it.
Yet I am so glad I kept it because there were many things I'd forgotten.
There were the ridiculous comments people make because they don't what else to say of course, BUT there were some amazing generous people who loved us. I was probably too numb to realise their love at the time. But reading back through the journey I am amazed at their practical support...
It was a horrible horrible time. But Max & Lucy taught me many things - about love, life & suffering. I will miss them forever, but I am glad I got to love them & they lived surrounded by our love for that time...

They were due around this time of year...

I am learning

I am learning more about technology.

I've been making posters for the Primary Music Classroom all day & planning some Term 4 work while I still have the energy.

I am learning how to connect my camera to the computer instead of waiting for D to help me...and this laptop has a camera in it...amazing...

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The Class of 2010...

I went to the Yr 12 Graduation up at school today. The Class of 2010! It only seems like yesterday I was at my own...the Class of 1988!! I sat with a parent up the back today & we might be sitting together again to watch the class of 2019 graduate - me with my eldest child, her with her youngest!

So much has happened since the 80s...life has certainly been an adventure.

It hasn't gone exactly the way I thought it would go...

Well, if I consider the negatives:
I never thought I would battle health issues or get used to being around hospitals quite so frequently...
I never thought I would have nearly died THREE times (so far) in my life...
I never thought I would experience the loss of innocence taken from me by someone I trusted...
I never thought I would lose my parents before I was ready to say goodbye, in my 20s & with so much left to ask & learn from them...
I never thought I would have to say goodbye to my little twins at 20 weeks & deliver them knowing they wouldn't take a breath...
I never thought I would take care of my hubby - the strong one, who had taken care of me, fight for his own life & battle the horror of Leukaemia...
I never thought my heart could be broken so much before I'd even turned 40...

I can't remember ANYTHING that was said to us at our farewell in Year 12. I think we had a guest speaker. I think there were LOTS of tears. What would I say to those graduating now? What would I say to the me that I was back then?

I think I would say that life is very precious & shorter than you know. I would cheer myself on knowing that I had been through so much already. I think I would say that people, places, things...they all fade or disappear. There are some things that are more important than material wealth, than fickle friends, than career...there is Truth that is unchanging. There is One who will wrap you up & be faithful amid overwhelming grief & horror. There are things that will last for eternity, but they are not the things that most people chase after. The little girl in Year 8 that sat on her parents red lounge & read the New Testament got to know the Living God. Although so many people told you differently THAT was one of the best decisions you ever made. The One you met there has carried you, guided you, helped you, protected you, loved you & blessed you in hundreds of different ways & He continues to teach you...

Life does not always go the way we expect it to. But there are choices we have. There are people we can love on this journey. All of this fades. The shopping item that inspires sits to one side a few weeks later gathering dust. The job becomes, at times, just plain old hard work. When we die what do we leave behind? What sort of lives should we lead? What really counts?

I knew lots of facts & enjoyed the love of good friends back in Year 12. Sometimes I think the Lissy back then was full of courage & hope. I think I was at times braver than I am now. Now I feel more worn down.
I would ((hug)) that 17 year old girl & tell her she was loved by God, & that I was proud of her. I'd tell her to never give up. I'd tell her awesome times were ahead. I'd tell her terrifying times were ahead. I'd tell her that we all have our own path to travel on...but there is much much joy in the journey, & in the end there is only One that we have to answer to. Jesus.

What do you want to be when you grow up?

This was the theme of the Year 12 Activities Day this year.

And so we have an actor & an artist ;-)

Quote from the Gitz site...

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Doesn't this look delightful...from here...

Prayer

reading a really interesting book about prayer...

Teaching

My Year 6 class of "noisies" did really well at the concert last Friday night...

So much hard work, amazing effort from most (except the kids who just didn't show up on the night...urk!) & teachers that 'know' them are amazed that the kids were able to perform something like that. Makes me glad I made the effort - I am not in a straight jacket surprisingly - & concerts & events like that are such a great experience for the kids. That's why teachers do it.

Bon has just finished reading The Secret Garden all by herself & is just phoning Nan & Pop (who gave it to her) to let them know she read it in about 3 days. Amazing when they learn to read & can go on an ADVENTURE with a book. I think this is the first great book that she's read without me...growing up so fast. I remember doing that with The Famous Five when I was her age. I think I stayed up with a torch because it was so exciting!! Now my daughter is doing similar things...wow. The circle of life?

Went to my lovely ladies Bible Study group today too. A safe place to learn & discuss & pray. Love it.

K-6 Open Day 2010

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